Mother of 2

I'm now a mother of 2. Mother of 2 little boys ! Another one to keep us busy.

Anyway, delivered my 2nd little boy 2 days ago and that started off my 2 months maternity leave. *yipppeeeee* Well, though I'm a mother of 2 now, I have still a couple of 'first times' with 2nd pregnancy and labour experiences.

Let's start from pregnancy. It was the first time when I didn't even steal a sip of coffee throughout the pregnancy. I'm a coffee addict since primary school and without my daily dose, I'm a walking zombie. When I was expecting Ivan previously, I had around 5 cuppas throughout. *teehee* Not that coffee is a no-no beverage to have but it has something to do with calcium intake and how coffee reduces calcium in me. So, that's why I stayed away from my daily booster-coffee. With 2nd pregnancy, the moment I found out that I'm having a baby, I stopped taking till delivery. If you ask me, it's really something. To be able to stop an additiction for more than 34 weeks.

For the first time, I didn't use epidural despite the encouragements I have given to lots of expecting mummies and also, despite the fact that I was really grateful to epidural during my first labour experience. Hmm, trust me. Till now, I will still sing the same song. Epidural is one of the greatest invention of mankind. And why didn't I use it this time round? Ha ! All because of what Jeffrey said.

I started having contractions on the day before actual labour starts. Though it was mild and measured as 40% of the real pain, it is still painful. Jef saw the gritting pain look I wore on my face and commented, 'Ha .. see your face sure cannot tahan and will use epidural again'. Waaaahhhhh ... that's it. Told myself to try my best to handle the pain. I mustn't ask for epidural. *fingers crossed*. So, in the delivery suite, the staff nurse asked me, 'What kind of painkiller would you want to have? Would you want to have epidural?' And me replied, 'Errr .. let's see the pain level later.' :P In the end, I didn't use epidural. It was painful like hell. The laughing gas didn't help and the painkiller jab on the thigh was useless. But I could feel the entire process. I can still remember how it felt when baby's about to come out and the final push. Hmm ... an experience I would never forget.

Lastly, it is the first time I breastfeed direct to baby. :) With Ivan previously, I only managed to express it out and it didn't last long. Hmm .. really not long. But this time, I was kind of determined to try breastfeeding. And I did. The first time when baby latched on to me, that moment was really warm and felt so close to baby and I feel the responsibility. I am now responsible in watching my diet and make sure that whatever I eat is good enough for baby. *grin* Don't know how long it will last though. Heheh .. I'm another lembu betina now.

Now that I'm a mother of 2, I hope to be able to provide the same amount of tender loving care and attention to both my sons. I hope to be the same mother to both of them equally and that simply means I will not have the inclination to favour one from another. God grant me the strength and tolerance. Amen.